Category: Personal
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I’m Gone Take a Break.
One thing about me is that I’m gone take a break. From social media that it. It becomes easier each time because it feels necessary now. Since creating my current (Instagram) page and committing to start posting at the beginning of 2023 it has felt different than any other page I’ve been behind thus far.…
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I Apologize For Being A Bad Friend
I thought that I needed more time for this one, but I don’t. Who I am now is more accepting to what’s happening and has happened. No matter how it may make me feel I don’t want to dwell on anything too long anymore. In the past I’ve done that and went to crazy lengths…
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January ’23: More Than I Cared For
People lie, I get that, but everybody ain’t lying. When multiple people come to you about the same thing(s) it’s only so much of it that you’re going to willingly ignore. Well, that’s my case at least. The mess I dealt with last month was the push I needed to stop it exactly where it…
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Thank You 2022
Oh man! 2022 is coming to an end and 2023 will soon begin. There were so many things I planned to do before this very day. I really did but I’m proud of myself for not freaking out about them not being done. That panic when things aren’t done is definitely something I want to…
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The Pressure to Be …
I’ve been feeling this pressure to be many things, but present is top on that list. It’s also the only thing I don’t really want to be. I’ve caught the drift of people not understanding that I am truly, not even close to who I used to be when it comes to how I deal…
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So Glad You’re Here
Life as a stay-at-home mom has been hitting me hard lately. I’ve been in this position for a few years now, but it’s something about recent events that’s got me feeling stuck. Like I’m a fly trapped in a spider’s web. My spouses work schedule has made things worse for me because they’re only here…
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Where Do I Go From Here?
When it doesn’t hurt anymore and nothing surprises me and I find myself keeping my composure, what do I do? It’s easy to fight back and go lower when they go low. It feels better to let things be what they are even though I secretly wish things were different. But that pain and frustration…
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Making Peace With The Inevitable
I spend many days feeling bad about things that I cannot change. Things that I did as a child, being a follower and listening to those I thought were my friends. Not speaking up and saying exactly what I want, how I want because I’m too worried about hurting someone’s feelings – even though I’m…
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in 2022 …
I don’t know how I’m going to do it or what exactly has to be done, but I need to turn into an entirely different person this year. I’m giving myself this year to make specific changes and I’ll allow everything else to fall into place. There are three to four main things I want…
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Update: October 2021
On Wednesday, October 20, 2021, I had my first meltdown in almost two months. I don’t know exactly what I felt then no more then I know what I feel now, but I kept repeating “I was doing so good” afterwards. Something in me told me that the meltdown wasn’t supposed to happen but clearly,…
Thee Burgeon Seed 